We're getting closer towards the end of the school year- which is great with a capital G.
(I promise I will never ever say that ever again. Wow, I'm ashamed of myself)
So, quite a lot's happened lately- and quite a lot's going to happen.
For example, we break up very soon, it's my birthday and I'm going on holiday.
But I shouldn't wish away the last few weeks.
My year are going away on a residential trip in the countryside. It's a sort of 'bonding' trip, because next year we start all of the exams and stress is taken up on to a whole new level. So, even though my class is so close that our periods are synced (and yes, I did just say that. But it's true, and to all you guys out there- you're lucky.) - we still feel the need to go raft building.
That will be an experience, let me tell you. Yes, I trust my friends- but when it's to do with building something and freezing cold water, you shouldn't trust them as much as you normally would. If you do, you're probably going to end up head first into said freezing cold water.
I've got my eyes on you, guys.
No, it should be good, all jokes aside. I'm excited because I love all of this stuff- rock climbing, abseiling, canoeing etc. The only thing I wouldn't like is caving, but that's not going to happen, so... yay...
I am very clumsy though, so maybe I've jinxed my luck.
(EVERYONE. CROSS YOUR FINGERS. CROSS YOUR TOES. CROSS YOUR LEGS. YOUR ARMS. YOUR EYES. WHATEVER YOU CAN CROSS, CROSS IT.)
And I know that there are a few people who aren't looking forward to it, and I just want to say to you: It'll be over soon, don't spend your time sulking about it because chances are you won't get the chance to experience something like this again. :)
Of course, this little team building trip will probably not come with free wifi, so I won't be able to update during the week. Sorry, but I hope this makes up for it.
I'll update when I can, but I have a party on Sunday too so... yeah.
I'm excited about that. It's nice to just, hang out. Plus, if it means celebrating anybody's birthday that isn't mine- I'm all for it.
Yeah, my birthday's coming up soon. And I'm not particularly fussed about it. It's just another day, why would I want to celebrate one year closer to my mid-life crisis (I was going to say my death, but this is coming from a teenager, so I don't want to jinx that too)?
I don't hate it, well I do, but... It's nice for it to be appreciated- just don't go all out on it, okay?
Plus, I'll probably celebrate the fact that I'm the same age as almost everyone I know.
Woo! Perks of a schoolgirl!
I'm not just friends with people in school, but I don't particularly want to go in to that one today, if that's alright...
And then I'm off to France for a week. Ahh. Sun. French Food. Fireflies. Also French kids (Ooh la la), and I can speak a bit of French. Last time I went I managed to keep a simple conversation going, which was better than the first time. I had no idea what was going on, and everyone kept kissing me. That was awkward.
(They like to kiss almost as much as we like our tea)
And on that note, I think I'll round it up here.
Also, if you're ANYBODY AND I DON'T KNOW YOU- the most awkward thing you can do is kiss me. Please don't.
Fly on, I've already checked and there are no planes due in the air in your area for a couple more hours, so it's all clear and you won't be smashed to smithereens.
Luce xx
PS: The song of the post is I Am A River by Foo Fighters. That might not sound much like me, but I've got a pretty wide music taste. I like pretty much anything- so don't judge me if I wear a 5SOS tee or a tee of a band you've never heard of. People can surprise you, in more ways than you'd think.
Also, I heard on the radio this morning a mashup that this boy, Ty Lewis, did. He's actually AMAZING, he's fourteen years old and he's from the same place I am, so go and check him out. In the mashup he did Don't by Ed Sheeran, Nina by Ed Sheeran, No Diggity, I Need A Dollar (I hope I haven't left any out!) It's amazing, he's amazing and I love him so much. So yeah, check him out too...
PPS: I've had 11 buys for my short story so far- thank you if you've already bought it. If not, and you'd like to check it out, click here. It really helps me out, and I appreciate the fact that you're reading the words that I've written... so cheesy, but I like my cheddar strong, so deal with it.
The description isn't how I'd like it to be, but on one of my latest posts the description is there. Also- there happens to be a story called Lost Souls by Lisa Jackson, THAT'S NOT ME!
PPPS: I would like to share a quote from a book that I've been reading lately, it's Paper Towns by John Green and it's absolutely amazing. (Is that a bit cliché, even for me?)
"Humans lack good mirrors. It's so hard for anyone to show us how we look, and so hard for us to show anyone how we feel."
I think that's pretty beautiful, don't you think so too? Just, take a moment to appreciate that.
We spend so much time being fake, it's actually unreal. Do you dress the way you want to? Do you talk, or walk, or do basically anything the way you want to? Are you hanging out with the people you want to? Are you following your dream?
Are you really?
The reason I do this PPPS bit is to show you that you're worth it. And you are, you're worth more than you think. But if you're going around pretending to be someone that you're not, if you're putting on a mask and creating new traits and new hobbies and a new look for yourself that you don't really want- what is the point in doing the PPPS in the first place?
You're not really the person you make yourself out to be, are you? And is that going to make you happy? Is that going to make your life worth living?
No, it won't. It'll make you sad, and depressed, and lonely- you'll forget who you are, and that's the worst thing out of this whole situation.
So I can tell you that you're worth it, and that you're beautiful and you shouldn't give up- and that's true, because you shouldn't. But a reason that you feel like this is because you aren't being yourself, you aren't who you want to be.
Only you can change that. I can tell you all of these things, but only you can decide what to do. So please, I encourage you to do it. If not for yourself, then for me. Change from the person everyone else wants you to be into the person you want to be.
I can only do so much.
But you can change everything.
And maybe, just maybe, we can get ourselves out of this mess.
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